5 weeks left...

I don't want our blog to turn into me complaining about the last five weeks of pregnancy, but I have to admit that I am pretty tired of being pregnant. I've got some pretty fun things, like baby showers (yay!), to look forward to this month! And, I have a few more projects that I need to get accomplished in the nursery, but today, I'm feeling a little lost in what else needs to be done to get ready for having a baby. I kinda get hit with this feeling like I have absolutely no clue what is about to happen to us kinda feeling. My sister-in-law's baby is coming anytime in the next 12 days, and so that reality is kinda crazy, because it means just a few more weeks til ours comes.

Right now, time seems to be moving pretty slow. I've been pregnant since JANUARY! It is AUGUST, people. I kinda feel myself snapping my fingers... "Alright already... let's get a move on with this!"

There was this family at my church that had 8 children this past week visiting with us. Eight. They even had a little boy named Micaiah. He was the oldest boy, I think. In my brain, I was thinking.... there is NO WAY I will be pregnant 8 times. NO WAY! And then, I heard this other voice saying... Unless God wants you to be, and then I prayed... Please God, don't make me be pregnant 8 times. haha... Thankfully, medically speaking for me, I don't think it is really a good idea.

I've really been blessed with a really great pregnancy so far. I keep thinking of the verse from Psalm 127:3 "Behold, children are a gift from the LORD, the fruit of the womb, a reward." I'm really thankful that the LORD has decided to bless us this way. There are so many that want to be pregnant more than anything, and for the Lord to choose us to have THIS baby...it is just something to delight in!

I'm also trying to put myself into the position of visualizing what life will be like for us with another person in our family, and it's like looking at a blank wall. I realize that in 5 weeks, I will no longer be able to even think about doing what I want, when I want it. (I'm trying not to get depressed about that, but read my friend's post here. Not that she's depressed, but just that having a baby consumes so much of your time.) I will be getting up at night with a baby. I will be tired. I'm trying not to think about how cranky I get when I am tired. haha!

I was reading Proverbs 31, as I occasionally do, and I came across this verse, "She rises while it is yet night and provides food for her household and portions for her maidens." v.15 I realize that back in the day, they had to literally get up and start work pretty early to have some breakfast ready, but I guess I just thought about breastfeeding this time. LOL. Thankfully, I don't have any maidens, although it would be really nice right now to have someone waiting on me hand and foot due to my nice lovely swollen kankles. Maybe it's cankles, calf + ankle? Okay... now I'm rambling. Have a good day today! I'm gonna go spend time with the Lord now, so I can get a better perspective on what HE wants for me, not what I want!